Bittersweet Goodbye; Staffer Says Goodbye to CT
Published: Wednesday, July 25, 2012
Updated: Wednesday, July 25, 2012 18:07
I’m not very good at saying goodbye. In my experience, farewells have always been difficult and awkward, and l’m usually left kicking myself for not having been able to adequately express my thoughts.
I want to say everything that’s in my heart at that moment of goodbye, but anxiety over phrasing things perfectly and memorably usually prevents this. Panic sets in and, because Shonda Rhimes doesn’t write my monologues, I usually end up trying to be funny or saying something dumb or singing “So Long, Farewell” from the “Sound of Music” (It’s not pretty).
Writing has been one of the few ways that I feel capable of conveying what’s in my head, so I will use this column, my last, to say a proper goodbye to College Times sans any Von Trapp hits.
As my first job in journalism, I couldn’t have asked for a better experience. I got to have my work published on a weekly basis, talked to people I never would have, went to movie screenings and events, and even interviewed Will Ferrell. It has been exciting and interesting, to say the least.
Saying goodbye to those opportunities is sad, of course, but not nearly as heart-rending as saying goodbye to the people (and animals) I’ve worked with. The CT staff is like a little family, their lives connected by more than just the magazine. I’ll miss the conversations, the jokes, Ed Baker’s awesome playlists, the dogs running around the office and my little desk in the midst of it all.
Working at College Times was so special and leaving is bittersweet. I guess that’s the way it goes with goodbyes, though. Your heart hurts for what you’re losing, but that’s eased by the sweet memories you’re taking away (Cheesy? Perhaps. But this is my farewell column!).
I’ve come to realize it’s a good thing when goodbyes are difficult, though, because it reveals how wonderful a person, job or experience was and how much they or it meant to you. I think that’s why I get nervous to form my parting words; I want so badly for the other person or people to know how much I care.
And so I shall try to keep my parting words simple and clear: thank you, College Times, for everything. I have loved my time here.
As A.A. Milne (yes, I am quoting the author of “Winnie the Pooh”) wrote, “How lucky I am to have something that makes saying goodbye so hard.” Lucky, indeed.
So long, farewell, College Times.